This word had been kind of eating at me for the past while, I don't know how to explain it even. I guess I will go into further detail on what I mean.
You go to school or work or the gym or some stereotypical place every day, you see the same people you do the same thing routine sets in and doing so makes it comfortable, easy. But could this possibly be isolation to see the same people everyday , do the same thing, talk the same small talk. being a closed off from people even though you see them every day. Or maybe subconsciousness im isolated and looking for it in others. but on an other hand I see the same people and do the same thing everyday and dont feel closed off... I guess being closed off can be alot different though, isolation is so complex I guess and maybe im trying to understand it my self, or maybe im in that little box those draw them self's, hidden away, closed off from people. but maybe not so much.
I guess I want to go somewhere new, exciting. Im thinking alone where no one knows me I could meet some new people change somethings up so I don't feel so empathetic for my self. I would like just to leave with a back pack take the bus somewhere a little to far for me to know how to get home. go to a coffee shop or a dinner, just get up enough courage and talk to some one talk to them, learn there name history, the things about them, their little nacts that make them. I could introduce my self to a whole stranger and become friendly with them they could become friend. a friend none of my friends are friends with. A friend just for me.
I'm just bored with something, I cant exactly pin point what in which that is although when I figure it out I will probably write about it. I want change... because change is good, although the wrong change can bring you some where wrong, or right. It's on of those interesting little things about the universe i'll personally never understand.
ps. the possibility of me ever actually going out and doing something along these lines are slim to none. but hey a person can dream right?
This is awesome! I like how you
ReplyDeletere asking questions somewhat outside the box of average society.
You're hitting dead on with the part about going to the same place daily doing the same remedial tasks. Humans are a naturally nomadic species that should be constantly moving, doing things, going new places, learning new things. Where I'm going with that particular statement is, it makes since for it to feel unnatural. And society has boxed everybody away from the real world in fear of people thinking somewhat like you: Not wanting to do everything just the way it is, because that's the way it is.
I hope you're someday able to 'reasonably' achieve those dreams, as I have simmular ones. Haha.
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