Please dont comment if you dont actually read what i wrote or if you comment something stupid

Please dont comment if you dont actually read what i wrote or if you comment something stupid simple as that okay.

I love ridiculously girly music...

I do, It's just so much fun and It's just fun to listen to okay!! I dont even give a shit. Its great. Don't get me wrong I listen to alot of music like nirvana, system of a down, Bad religion, Atmosphere, Hopsin, and just alot of music but I always have and always love the girly music

Creepy guys honking at girls.

Creepy guys that honk at girls: I can't be the only one that is bothered by this right?! Okay so if you don't understand what I mean i'll set an example, So i'll be walking home or some where minding my own business when all the sudden a car drives by and honks and says something at it scares the shit out me! Its very startling to have this happen especially when it happens if when your only twelve- not that I am twelve but it sure did happen back then to me and my friends... anyway I am really just wondering the reason behind this, why exactly would someone think it is a good idea? Honestly it's not flattering it's scary and creepy. And it's even creepier the that majority of the guys who do this are old men with mustaches and are Mexican and they just look like rapist straight up. So if your a guy and you ever honked at a girl trust me- its not flattering what so ever it's creepy and just a no. ps. Why do people even do this?! if anyone figures that out they should let me know ~

My mom got on my Facebook.... Apparently I could have to leave JCOS??

So last night my mom read some facebook messages of mine that made her quite unhappy. She freaked out and was yelling at me about how I could go to MontView and that she didn'tknow what was wrong with me. It wasnt my ideal night at all! Now im in alot of trouble and I feel pretty bad for what happend. Latley I have been doing some stuff that would make any mom unhappy though, so I understand where she is coming from. But on top of that, She was yelling at me how I'm not going to be able to complete 8th grade and I cant go to JCOS. and all this stuff that stressed me out soo much-but this made me pretty pissed, i mean why would you wanna stress someone out about shit they already know they're going to have to work on! I know i need to get my stuff done but Jen (my advisor)hasn't even brought it up with me, so I'm not exactly sure what is going on with school cause, my mom is saying all this stuff about how im not going to finish 8th grade or go to jcos any more cause i dont get my stuff done, but Jen hasnt even brought it up with me. SO. If my mom is freaking out and she is right about all that stuff, doesnt that mean Jen should of talked to me about it eariler?! Like wtf shouldnt you brin that kind of stuff up with a student?? And Okay- Yes I know I need to get my life together and such but I have a plan if i dont get kicked out of this school (which i dont even know if thats true but my mom made it seem that i might) SO, my plan to get my work done simple as that. I dont know why everyone acts like I am incabable of doing that! I can get my work done i'm not freaking stupid. I am actually smart to an extent. But hoenstly as I have been writing this I kinda of just figured out that I dont have anything in my life figured out. thats pretty ironic since i dont think anyone actually ever knows what they're doing with there life. But that's not the point-I really need to figure some stuff out about who I am and who i want to be and how to be successful and stuff. It's all terribly confusing. All in all I need to get my shit together and finish school.

I hate blogger omggg

I really dislike this site. I illegitimately have so much trouble figuring it to out, i feel like and old lady trying to you Facebook or something! You have to press to many buttons and it's really just annoying and I kinda hate it! I like the class though, just not the website
Haha~

Every one talks shit about everyone

It's true!
Everyone talks shit about everyone, you'll never be perfectly sweet and kind-you'll always fuck up i promise.
But so will everyone else! you'll never be perfect, neither will any one else, you will most likey say something behind someones back more than once and they will too about you! i feel like its a give in take kinda deal, you say some stuff, they say some stuff but it weighs out in the end of it all. so yeah whast im saying is your an asshole too, just like the rest of us.
:)

OH school...

School these days... it just not my thing! there isnt much that is very intresting at all. i just wish i didnt have to go ya know? I feel like classes have gotten even more boring and unetanable to my life right now! I have so many other things to worry about and school just consumes too much of my time. It's just so stressfull with all there unnessisary deadlines and essays that need to be written! If I didnt have to go to school-well I honeslty think I'd be bored although, I just wish I could do what i want and not worry about other things i find use less. Okay you know what  i'll do the school work if i find it vauable to my education and if i can bare to actually do it, is that so bad? No. I wish school wasnt so boring these days~

Holiday Season, Oh My!

Well now that Summer has passed and Autum is begining to end the holiday season is here! I honestly love Halloween, Thanksgiving, and Christmas. My favorite however is probably Thanksgiving, I mean who doesnt love shoving their faces with food right? And for what it's worth being with your family can be quite a delight during the holidays, laughing, and sharing memories oh what fun!
The holidays are fun and all but my family wouldnt exactly classify as "normal" not saying it's terrible or anything but the holidays always seem to have some what big event weither that be a family blow out that leaves someone not talking for a couple years or just a great moment with crying of joy either way, something big seems to always occur. Well on that note im excited for food and Christmas presents , Laughs and memories. So good day to you. haha~

the play

So at my school there is gonna be a musical; The sound of music. Hannah, Pixie and I are all gonna do it and so im actually pretty excited cause we will all get to conncect again! It should also be a pretty fun play; its considered a classic I persum so I think it should be good to learn about it since ive never seen it before. so all in all, this should be fun.
I havent done a play since 5th grade. I'm not a very good singer and i dont really think im good at acting but you never know. I think that doing this play will be fun although a little scary! I deffs dont want a lead role, maybe a fairly known part but not the lead. Im excited to so how i do, and connect back with my friends(:
 dats it yolo swag:..

Intensives!

Last weeks intensives where actually quite fun, well at least the one I chose was fun. I did the "Fit Chick" intensive along with my whole group of ementry friends... intresting huh? we went on hikes, swag, and did yoga, along with taking a bare esstenails work out class where we also went swimming! besides working out we also learned a bit about body image with the teenage girls, we had a group conversation about it along with watching a movie called "A Girls Life" this film we watched as diffrent girls faced struggles that girls today have to face.
my highlight for this class consisted of just being able to work out with my friends and to feel able to workout with everyone with out getting all embarssied and stuff, it was really fun and cool.
a low light however was that I got there really really late on the first day and It almost effected my abilty to be the intensive I wanted.
If i could choose to do a three day class on something I suposed I would do one on my digs topic, Photoshoped pictures in out media... I think it would be a cool one for younger girls to take because It would be cool if i could teach them that this idolized dream of perfection is unastanable.
my goals for my intisve were,
To be more healthy
To become more happy with my slef
To learn more about working out.
all together I felt I had completed all of these goals, and had a super awesome intenisve(:

believe in other, seeking meaning in your life, believe in my self...

Today I watched a short video on Viktor Frankl  and his thoughts, "believe in others" This thought happens to be contrary to my believe, of only beilving in youself.
In alot of ways I really enjoyed what Viktor had to say, he spoke about setting your goals higher so you can achieve greater things. I think this is a great way to think for alot of people, but me Im not sure, Im kind of agianst setting goals that you might fail to achieve. I hate to think about my furture career and life. It stresses me out and makes less time for things that are happening right now.
what gets me along with the fact that maybe I dont want to think ahead why cant we all just live in the now, and I feel that alot of what he said seems to be miss inturpeted about a career when I honeslty think that should be not be something people should be think his words are about, of course I agree that a person should persue in a career they love but shouldnt what he is talking about be more focused on life? I mean a job is one thing a person has in there life at out of it all, shouldnt we be using his words to full advantedge? To set goals of wanting to be happy, and find passions throughout life, find the in the good in the wolrd, no find the best, beilve in people and live a life with passion and sollitude, right?
He's thoughts are very equivalent to one of the five goals of the Open School "seek meaning in your life" this goal corresponds more with my thoughts of beliving more in your self and less in others. seek meaning in you life translates into a large number of catigories, it can be from finding a passion, to finding love, as easily as it can be explained; you seek out what gives your life meaning. and thats is somthing I evenutally want to take away from Open School, and life in genreal. I want to be able to find meaning to me life, I want to be able to dicover the one thing that gives me whole life meaning make every second of it enjoyable because I know it will be worth it, all in all this is the most important goal of our school.

Kayyy im done with this post -nonniee

My friendship with pixie

Pixie is my friend. one day we went to school and were like "dude, were bestfriends"  and were they coolest 2nd graders in the whole land.

About My Blog, A little About me...

My blog is pretty much the thougts that occurr at random times in my head that I would like to write down. The little things that I see, hear, or notice about people and the world. It's mostly about me, and my thoughts, yes infact thats exactly what my blogs about. I guess im even trying to figure it out what its about. 
I really think a blog about my thoughts will be a good thing for me, i can finally fingure out a way to talk about them, because I guess I dont really care about the "normal" teenage things...
I think.. alot, its what im best at, dont get my wrong I talk to, but im better at thinking. Sometimes I hate it, all I do over think, think.... think... think
maybe I would like to find out if anyone else thinks about the things that come across my mind, like how ever person you meet has a life of there own, there own family, problems, they woke up in the morning just like you did and when they look at you the mirrors fliped, you are the stranger to them, you are a spect of dust on there entire existesnce, but yet just by you and them being on the same bus, or going into the same restraunt you know have completey alltured there life just by meeting them for a few breif seconds, from now on that person can never unmeet or see you. does that ever cross peoples minds, that every little thing you do effects everything and everyone you met? Yet you are still pretty tiny compared to the seven billion people, or the planet, or even the univerese, makes you seem pretty insafinacant some times, or maybe it's just me.... thoughts anyone?

Isolation

This word had been kind of eating at me for the past while, I don't know how to explain it even. I guess I will go into further detail on what I mean.
You go to school or work or the gym or some stereotypical place every day, you see the same people you do the same thing routine sets in and doing so makes it comfortable, easy.  But could this possibly be isolation to see the same people everyday , do the same thing, talk the same small talk. being a closed off from people even though you see them every day. Or maybe subconsciousness im isolated and looking for it in others. but on an other hand I see the same people and do the same thing everyday and dont feel closed off... I guess being closed off can be alot different though, isolation is so complex I guess and maybe im trying to understand it my self, or maybe im in that little box those draw them self's, hidden away, closed off from people. but maybe not so much.
I guess I want to go somewhere new, exciting. Im thinking alone where no one knows me I could meet some new people change somethings up so I don't feel so empathetic for my self. I would like just to leave with a back pack take the bus somewhere a little to far for me to know how to get home. go to a coffee shop or a dinner, just get up enough courage and talk to some one talk to them, learn there name history, the things about them, their little nacts that make them. I could introduce my self to a whole stranger and become friendly with them they could become friend. a friend none of my friends are friends with. A friend just for me.
 I'm just bored with something, I cant exactly pin point what in which that is although when I figure it out I will probably write about it. I want change... because change is good, although the wrong change can bring you some where wrong, or right. It's on of those interesting little things about the universe i'll personally never understand.
ps. the possibility of me ever actually going out and doing something along these lines are slim to none. but hey a person can dream right?

Rediscover The Joy Of The Learning

"Rediscover the joy of learning" is part of the JCOS philsophy, I know of lot of students that come from other schools just hating learning in genreal. I think this is one of the most important things the can take out of the open school. when you find the thing your passionate about and you start to enjoy the learning aspect of it, finding something you want to pursue in the furture is something to be looked forward to, something that can be easily idenified. I love JCOS  I love the people, the teachers, the enviorment of it all, the only thing I fail to keep up with is the class work from time to time, yes I hate math and will never give it the time of day, but I enjoy writing and feel Im fairly good at it. Jcos has taught me its okay not to be perfect in every subject its about what your passionate about and learning as much as you can, turn it in personal, social, and intellectual learning. Basicially "Redicover the joy of learing" means to me is to find your passions and take it to the next level, find the things that make learning fun for you, find the places, the people, and discover what you love to learn about :)
toodles~nonniw

The Book Of Awesome; 1000 Awesome Things

The Book Of Awesome; 1000 awesome things: If you dont know what this is well this guy Neil Parsicha, was having a very rough time in life and dicided to start a blog to help him, he called it 1000 awesome things, later he made his book The Book Of Awesome. http://www.ted.com/speakers/neil_pasricha.html

I found it amazing that someone that had gone through all the obsticals still could have such a postive outlook on life. He finds a way through all the negitivity, all the doubt, all the dissapointment to find the good. Its an art almost, an art many have not mastered. He doesnt let dark times consum his life, and thats pretty rad.
Starting a blog in a lot of ways can help a person. This is a good example, Neil Pasricha Took all his sorrow and negivity and insteed of dewling on it and laching on to the sad and deppesing times, he lets go and find the happienss in the little things, the parts of life that matter and blogs aboutit.
 Even though this blog worked for him and he found ways to be positve, how can you expect one thousands things just to dramaticaly change your out look on life? From what I know when you're sad or angry not alot can change that, so out of all the misery, saddness, or just plain bad things in the world how are we expected to look at the one thousand things good, when there are so many things wrong? It's almost irrating how Neil acts like it so easy just to exept life, to find joy even through existential crisis's, grief, heart break as if even through all the hard times you just have to grieve and  move on. It seems like you would have to be a very happy soul for this kind  positvity just to occur. And thats were it gets me, his ideas and thoughts are so uniqe, yet everyone says it. Everyone says "just be happy" yet they cant find it in themselvs to show how, Neil has found a way to take it apoun him self to say, Life may suck but it's worth it. And thats what it so astonishing about the his blog.

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My take on run on senteces.... i dont know hah.

I just took a quiz for class on this, I seem to know enough to call myslef okay at keeping sentences intact. The most important thing I beileve will help keep you from making fragments in your writing is make sure it sounds correct if you're reading it out lound, it can even help if someone other than you reads it. This usually helps make the words flow better. Making sentences with missplaced, commas.  confuses the reader, because, it doesnt flow correct, and you are making a long, run on stentences, wich isnt nessesarily good, it drags out the idea of the passage for too much time when you can easily make your point across. As you can see that sentence before this one was an example of a run on sentance. I personally try my hardest not to create run on senteces, Even if I try not to make run them it is still a difficult thing to acomplish at times.

Ha so dont judge this I didnt really no what I was doin~

Me;

I am Briana, I used to hate this fact about me, now I kind of enjoy it. Briana is my name, yet I go by Nonnie, I almost legally changed it but now I feel like its a hidden part of me that I would like to keep. I dont know is I would say I like writing, I wouldnt nessesarily say I am good at it, but I do enjoy it and it seem to be an easy way to let thought escape. Mostly my post going to be about the random thoughts I have throughout time and me digging into them, maybe they're random and pointless somedays, and other maybe a deep intake in how I felt and discover true feeling on a subject. I'm not sure though. All together I would say this will be a blog about Briana. Not so much "Nonnie" this might confuse people whom are think, Nonnie, you are Briana there is no diffence, It's just a name. Believe me, I'm not saying I have to diffrent personalitys or something along those lines, But the Briana is a part of "Nonnie" that many dont see, It's indeed me, but nonnie is just the outskirts of briana, the person that I am but not the person everyone may see.

I like poetry. I write it I read it. I do not share it.

I like school, I try, I sometimes fail. and give up

I like really girly music, I listen to it. alone.

I like rap. everyone know it im sure.

I hate bugs

I hate onions

I hate Popicls

And for the rest of me im a closed book~

You against the wolrd

I love this quote, alot of people think it might be sad or incorrect, that you shouldnt think that way, but I find it empowering; You cant reley on anyone to make you happy and you cant get to upset if someone breakes your trust, I find it that everyone is human and everyone breaks trust, tells secrects, cheats or lies. Its doesnt make you an indecent person, it just makes you human. You can only trust yourself and in a way I think thats a good thing, it makes you more indapentdate, you never have to get heartbroken, or angry at another, cause its true, Its you, agianst the world.